Tuesday, January 6, 2009
Writing Prompt: "What are you waiting for?"
I have had a horrible day, starting with a rainy, cold morning funeral, and then I can't even verbalize the rest of the day. I don't think they make words for that level of frustration and disappointment. I wanted to blog and get some stuff off my chest, but I refuse to make this into a wall of whining. I wanted something positive something that I can feel good about something I can look forward to. So I looked to the faithful "One Minute Writer" prompts, going back a few days I instantly found the topic that I wanted to blather on about..."What are you waiting for?"
Of course this will take longer than one minute, as usual...
No matter what happens tommorrow, no matter what drama unfolds, I am going to attend my first Creative Writer meeting tommorrow evening. I don't have any idea what to expect but I am going. I decided in December to do this and I have procrastinated until the week of, to register. The leader has graciously given me permission to come even thought I have not paid for a spot yet. I have waited because I was unsure of myself and my level of committment to myself. I have waited because I'm not sure I have any talent. I have waited because I allow my family to dominate my time and my mind and keep me in a constant state of worry and frustration.
One of my promises to myself was to make sure I take better care of myself. I find my resolve is slipping away. So I am re-commiting to the goal of self care. My children will have to find their own way.
My only New Years resolution this year is one word. F.U.N.
If it isn't fun, Im not doin' it.
I Know there is more I can say, but I won't because it would cease to be fun.
Thanks for listening..................